How did I become an author? It started when I sought the advice of a very wise person regarding the excruciating pain in my right finger. I had had my last Panadol in 1971, after a big night, and wasn't into pain killers, but I could not tolerate the pain in my right index finger, which had swollen and was purple. Having read a lot of Louise L. Hay's work, I was inclined to think that there was an emotional contribution to the problem. I asked Esther Hicks to tell me about it and it turned out that I had a burning desire to write.
I knew that. I have written scenarios in my head for years and once even wrote a screenplay for Steve Martin, in 1991, Pre-Clare. However, his agents in Los Angeles said he didn't accept unsolicited material and Clare arrived and that was the end of that.
When the idea of writing grew, I believed that I had to write something professional. As a psychologist, I have always been interested in the outer spheres of human thought and studied Edgar Cayce for many years. I was also very impressed with Jesus' admonition that anything he could do, we could do too. I was also curious about the possible power of prayer, which after all, is thought.
So I started writing a book on therapy based on the power of thinking positively. It was not just another book on positive thinking, but on the extraordinary power that focusing on what you want can have. However, I began to run out of steam. Next, when I trained as a fitness instructor, I started a book, which I do intend to finish in the near future, called "Live Well Over Sixty". I am re-orienting that book from a fitness perspective to an emotional wellness perspective. That ran out of steam too and I didn't know what to do next.
Then, I saw a book at an airport shop called Tell to Win by Peter Guber. It practically jumped out at me so I read the back cover and knew I had to have that book. I read it in one sitting. It described the human need for story. I resonated with it immediately because I am aware that when I read text books or self help books I am immediately drawn to the stories that are given as examples of transformation or improvement.
At that time, a scenario kept playing in my head. It was of a woman sitting in the dark in her dining room, twisting her rings and waiting for her husband to come home and tell her he is leaving her. I thought about it so often I even went to my psychology supervisor (we all have one) and ran it by her. Was I going crazy? It turned out I wasn't, well, not quite and not yet, but that it was an interesting idea for a story.
I played with that scenario for months, usually as I was driving the car, and realized that each time I thought about it, I was feeling a little better. It wasn't until the character could take charge and find her courage and power that I felt I could write it down.
Then came the next stumbling block. I can' write. By that, I mean, I can't describe things. I tried to write it in the third person and failed miserably. Was this the end of another dream? I hoped not. In the meantime, I went to a conference in Mexico and decided to stay a couple of extra days. In an earlier blog I described how I was swimming (a euphemism for standing around splashing) in the sea when a thought came to me (I didn't think it, it came to me, I swear) that said, Write it in the first person.
I jumped out of the sea and wrote for the next five days, not even stopping to eat. I wrote while I ate. Nothing ever stops me eating. Then I bought a little recorder, a Sony IC Recorder - best money I ever spent - and talked into that. I transcribed my notes and the book emerged.
So my thanks go to Edgar Cayce, Louise Hay, Esther Hicks, Peter Guber and Sony. If anyone has any other questions to put to me, please feel free. I am here to help. Seriously, I am. Best wishes to everyone!